ob·sess | \ əb-ˈses , äb-\
obsessed; obsessing; obsesses
Definition of obsess
: to haunt or excessively preoccupy the mind of
17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God!
how great is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand:
when I awake, I am still with thee.
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I have a confession to make…
I may have what is known as addictive personality. This is a self diagnosis, of course, but I have seen this tendency in me: Addictions can take many forms; I have a tendency to go off on research tangents. As a researcher, my obsessions have taken the form of people and things. I used to love reading biographies and watching biographical programs about various people. Once the Internet came on the scene, I would spend hours poring over information about people’s lives and associated events in history, concepts, etc.
I am not as bad about this as I used to be, but every now and then, I still find myself slipping into this tendency. This is likely a form of escapism—I find that this tendency rears its ugly head particularly when I am stressed. Perhaps, subconsciously, I find some sort of pleasure in living vicariously through the lives of individuals whose existences are/were, seemingly, more carefree, glamorous, or interesting than mine.
One day, I was off on one of these tangents, and I felt the Holy Spirit say so strongly in me, “Jesus obsesses over you the way you obsess over [name of person].”
Those words felt like a knife in my heart!
I felt so silly. There I was, on another bizarre web search for interesting images and meaningless information, and the Creator of the universe was spending His time thinking about me. We wake up and immediately jump on Twitter, Instagram, or wherever else to feed our latest obsession, and the most fascinating, engaging, and loving Personality in existence is obsessing over us, just waiting to interact with us.
Song of Solomon 2:14
O my dove, that art in the clefts of the rock, in the secret places of the stairs, let me see thy countenance, let me hear thy voice; for sweet is thy voice, and thy countenance is comely.
Indeed, the Lord seems almost flattered by our attention, though we are so insignificant, compared to Him:
Song of Solomon 6:5
Turn away thine eyes from me, for they have overcome me: thy hair is as a flock of goats that appear from Gilead.
Why are humans so strange? Why do we constantly go looking for treasure, when the greatest Treasure is right in front of us?
Let this be a reminder to us: When we engage in worthless pursuits, or are even tempted to do so, let us remember that there is only one addiction worth having, only one obsession worth pursuing and His name is Jesus!
Thou shalt have no other gods before me.
No servant can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other….
And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.
The wicked, through the pride of his countenance, will not seek after God: God is not in all his thoughts.